Men….

Dear Whoever You Might Be,

So we (the munchkins and I) had to head to SL/H-town for T’s neurology sleep study results appointment.  On the way here to SL/H-town I turned to radio to the area Christian radio station to see what music they were playing at the time.  They weren't playing music but talking about men.  The first program they were interviewing the author of the book “How to date your wife” (I forget his first name) Buzzard.  Dating your Wife….sigh..there is so much more to it than just a date night once a week, or twice a month.  Dating your wife is….is…oh just go buy the book my love.

The second program that fit so well with the first was a sermon by Matt Chandler out of The Village Church in Dallas.  Again it was about men leading their wives, becoming leaders of  their homes like G-d intended.  It made me cry..

I pray every day, some times with many tears that you will be that man.  My soul aches for that.  I need you to be the spiritual leader of our home my love.  I need you to raise up my son and any other sons we may have to be strong spiritual leaders for their wives.  I need a man that my daughter and any other daughters we have look up to and say “I want a man like that for my husband.”  I don’t want them to follow in my mistake's.

I am struggling so much with being patient and waiting for you.  I am 30 my love…I want to be married again and have more kids.  I think out of everything this is the one thing I am struggling with so much. But you know I think part of that is because I am having such a hard time submitting to G-d’s authority.

Ouch….looks like I have some thinking to do my love.

Love,

Waiting Patiently…okay I’m trying and struggling really hard with it