{Be} Godly

Dear Whoever You Maybe,

I needed this reminder.  Please be the man who will teach our kids the way of Jesus. 

I pray you are plugging into a strong community and are surrounded by males that are encouraging you, disciplining you, and helping to shape you into the Godly man I know you are.

Sometimes I get so overwhelmed with loneliness for you and your encouraging Godly presence in not only my life but our children’s (its just easier to think of my kids as ours my love) lives as well.

Missing you my love,

Waiting Patiently…(trying….)

Men….

Dear Whoever You Might Be,

So we (the munchkins and I) had to head to SL/H-town for T’s neurology sleep study results appointment.  On the way here to SL/H-town I turned to radio to the area Christian radio station to see what music they were playing at the time.  They weren't playing music but talking about men.  The first program they were interviewing the author of the book “How to date your wife” (I forget his first name) Buzzard.  Dating your Wife….sigh..there is so much more to it than just a date night once a week, or twice a month.  Dating your wife is….is…oh just go buy the book my love.

The second program that fit so well with the first was a sermon by Matt Chandler out of The Village Church in Dallas.  Again it was about men leading their wives, becoming leaders of  their homes like G-d intended.  It made me cry..

I pray every day, some times with many tears that you will be that man.  My soul aches for that.  I need you to be the spiritual leader of our home my love.  I need you to raise up my son and any other sons we may have to be strong spiritual leaders for their wives.  I need a man that my daughter and any other daughters we have look up to and say “I want a man like that for my husband.”  I don’t want them to follow in my mistake's.

I am struggling so much with being patient and waiting for you.  I am 30 my love…I want to be married again and have more kids.  I think out of everything this is the one thing I am struggling with so much. But you know I think part of that is because I am having such a hard time submitting to G-d’s authority.

Ouch….looks like I have some thinking to do my love.

Love,

Waiting Patiently…okay I’m trying and struggling really hard with it

Perspective..

Dear Whoever You Might Be,

I have spent a lot of time lately thinking about you, missing you, wondering if we have even met yet… but I’m starting to realize that all that time I have spent missing you and crying about “How come I am not dating? What is wrong with me? Why is everyone else in my life dating and moving on but me?” hasn’t been good for me at all. 

I am looking to date the wrong person right now.   I should be having Jesus dates.  I need to be working on these things right now.  Maybe by working on these, especially #8 Guard your Heart and #1 Repeat After Me, You Are Loved will help me when I have days, weeks, or months like I have been having.

Maybe making sure that the rest of my life is less chaotic and balanced before I start dating is what I need to do.

I still miss you…pray for me my love.

Always,

Waiting Patiently

Stuck

My Dear Whoever You Might Be,

I miss you.  It seems like everyone else's life is moving forward but mine.  I wonder where you are and wish you were here with me. 

The kids are headed to camp next week and I am headed to the Island for one of the days they are gone.  The rest of the time I will be sleeping..or something.

This will be my sabbatical from everyone.  Time to go on a G-d date. 

I'm getting so depressed lately.  My friends have either moved away or now hove bf/gf's of their own.  I know it sounds silly to be so lonely when I have two wonderful kids around but I am.

My heart cries out to G-d all the time...when is he going to come into my life?  Have I met you and not known it?  Am I ever going to be married? 

I miss you terribly my love!  This past May was so hard on all of us with the kids other grandmother passing away and all that entailed.  T's sleep study, the end of school...just May itself.

Find me soon.

Love,
Waiting Patiently