Moments like this....

Dear Whoever You Might Be,

I sit here at lunch by myself and I have so many emotions running through me right now. A touch of sadness because I am here alone, relief because I am here alone (our kids started back to school today!), nervous because I feel something new will be happening soon and what that maybe I don't know but I feel the excitement. I also think G-d has given me the okay that I may have other children. That thought scares me but that means then that you are out there. Or maybe it means I won't have children the way I want but I will "adopt" others as my own. Who knows? Just know that I love you and I miss you. Our son has a neurology appointment next week. I pray it all goes well.

Always,
Waiting Patiently