Dear Whoever You Might Be,
How is your week my love? I know its something I say all the time but I am tired. I am having to force myself to smile everyday right now. My friends text me and tell me to have a good day and my standard response is “Always 
I feel like I am drowning right now. I know its just a season that I am going through but oh my do I feel like I have the weight of the world on me. I have actually begun to gain weight again which I hate. I have exactly $.15 in my bank account right now. $.15 and I don’t know when I am going to get any money anytime soon.
People don’t understand how hard it is for me right now. I am looking everyday for a job. I spend 4-5 hours a DAY looking and applying. For everything from being a waitress to working retail again. Time and time again I don’t get a response. Not being bilingual is killing me here. I don’t have a degree in anything 
I am hurting and don’t know what to do anymore. Sometimes the thought of leaving and letting my parents raise the kids because I obviously from a financial stand point cant anymore. The fact that this thought is coming over me more and more lately scares me. I love them so much and I feel like a failure more and more.
Pray for me hard love.
Always,
Waiting patiently
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