sigh….

Dear whoever you might be,

This song by The Civil Wars is what really made me start thinking about you.  Wondering where you are.  Are you thinking and wondering about me?  The lyrics are below my dear.

"To Whom It May Concern"

Why are you so far from me?
In my arms is where you are to be
How long will you make me wait?
I don't know how much more I can take
I missed you but I haven't met you
Oh but I want to
How I do
Slowly counting down the days
Till I finally know your name
The way your hand feels round my waist
The way you laugh, the way your kisses taste
I missed you but I haven't met you
Oh but I want to
How I do
How I do
I've missed you but I haven't met you
Oh how I miss you but I haven't met you
Oh but I want to
Oh how I want to
Dear whoever you might be
I'm still waiting patiently

 

Love,

Waiting Patiently

Wondering…

Dear Whoever You Maybe,

I hope you are praying for me this week.  I am so overwhelmed with loneliness and single parenthood in general right now.  This week is going to be so rough for all of us.  Probably more so on me than on the kids. 

I feel my world is shrinking again and oh my goodness is that rough on me.  I am fighting to not let it happen but I feel like I am failing.  I feel like a failure so much right now.

I really need some encouragement.  A hug, a kiss…something.  A touch from someone who doesn’t call me Mom.

J keeps saying G-d is doing this to draw me closer but I feel farther and farther away.

All I want to do is cry.

Love,

Waiting Patiently

Where are you?

Dear Whoever You May Be,

Where are you ?  I miss you.  I wish you were with me right now.  I miss going out.  I love my kids but momma is going stir crazy.

Miss you terribly.

Love,

Waiting Patiently