Missing you…..

Dear Whoever You Maybe,

I wished you were around this week if for nothing else to let me vent and cry to you and tell me everything will be okay.  It’s been a long hard few days for the kids and I.  Probably more for me than anyone else.  For so long it felt as if my life was finally in a semi-regular routine.  The chaos and drama were gone but now it seems to be back.  J my “sister from another Father” said “It’s times like these that our Dad is using to draw us closer to Him.” but DWYMB I don’t feel like that right now.  I feel farther away than I have in a long time.  Sigh I wish you were here.

I don’t want to go to H-town 2 weekends in a row either.  I want to not have to deal with ex’s, drama, chaos, etc.. I want to avoid it at all cost but I know I can’t.  Just as much as I wish I didn’t have to deal with Sunday’s sermon in my life I know I do.  It unfortunately will always be a part of my life.  That scar will always be there.  But because of that I know what to look for and what to do. That is one hurt that you will have to be the most delicate with because it has taken the longest to heal. 

I pray for you every night on this topic….

I wish you were here.

I miss you…

 

Always…

Waiting Patiently