Missing you…..

Dear Whoever You Maybe,

I wished you were around this week if for nothing else to let me vent and cry to you and tell me everything will be okay.  It’s been a long hard few days for the kids and I.  Probably more for me than anyone else.  For so long it felt as if my life was finally in a semi-regular routine.  The chaos and drama were gone but now it seems to be back.  J my “sister from another Father” said “It’s times like these that our Dad is using to draw us closer to Him.” but DWYMB I don’t feel like that right now.  I feel farther away than I have in a long time.  Sigh I wish you were here.

I don’t want to go to H-town 2 weekends in a row either.  I want to not have to deal with ex’s, drama, chaos, etc.. I want to avoid it at all cost but I know I can’t.  Just as much as I wish I didn’t have to deal with Sunday’s sermon in my life I know I do.  It unfortunately will always be a part of my life.  That scar will always be there.  But because of that I know what to look for and what to do. That is one hurt that you will have to be the most delicate with because it has taken the longest to heal. 

I pray for you every night on this topic….

I wish you were here.

I miss you…

 

Always…

Waiting Patiently

{Be} Happy

Dear whoever you might be,

It’s another crazy week around here for me this week.  The kids it seems like have to be in a million places but they really don’t but it just seems like it.  I feel so overwhelmed trying to manage cleaning, homework, meals, laundry, work, church, and quiet time for myself..

I try not to miss you when I have weeks or days like this but lets face it..I will and I do.  I wonder sometimes what it would be like to have someone else help shuffle kids around town, help with the laundry..(at least just fold it and put it away for me…please??), homework, etc..

Sigh….I’m trying to be happy to day and enjoy the time I have with my monkey’s (yes I call them monkey’s).  Especially when Tarzan notice’s the top of his head is to the top of my shoulder when I am barefooted.  Ack! When did my teeny-tiny baby get to be so big?

Trying not to miss you horribly much, but failing badly today..

Love,

Waiting patiently

Embrace

Dear Whoever You Might Be...

This week is Easter week.  I pray this week is a hopeful and overwhelming for you as it is for me.  Someday soon I hope I can share my story with you.  I can't promise I will get through it without crying.  But you know that's okay.  I have scars in my life but I don't know, something this past week changed and instead of being mad about them and sad I've finally come to embrace them.  They are a part of me.  Without those battle scars I wouldn't be me.  I wouldn't know how powerful, awe inspiring, so overwhelming G-d's grace and mercy is.

I can't wait to hear your story someday.  I don't know if you are going through a tough season in your life or not right now.  If you are know that I am praying for you.  I know how hard those seasons can be.   Keep fighting.

Love,
Waiting Patiently

{Be} Patient

Dear Whoever You Might Be,
I havent met you yet but I want you to know I am trying to wait patiently for you.  I haven't felt like waltzing for a really long time, but now I am ready. 

I dont know when or if you will ever show up but I am okay with that.  In the mean time I will enjoy playing with my kids that I know you will adore and just learning to enjoy my life again.

I can't promise I wont miss you terribly somedays even though we haven't met yet because I will. 

I can promise though that I will pray for you becuase deep down I hope you are doing the same for me.

Love,
Waiting Patiently